Wednesday, August 26, 2009

On a good note

Remember that lifestyle/fashion magazine I told you about like 2 posts ago? Well I got the gig, that along with a modeling agency gig that they sponsor! So, with the magazine I start off doing event photography going to VIP events shooting and rubbing elbows with important people. AMAZING opp. only down fall is that its not directly paid. If I start my own biz w/website then people can but their pictures from ME on MY site. So, that's number one on my to-do list get that site up. But that's been really really, awesome.

I also have a potential internship with the newspaper down here as photographer, and I got another job lead as an amusement park photographer. So, I'm thanking God that all this good news has been pouring in. It's mainly whats making me stay here in Orlando. I was going to phrase that last sentence "stay behind" but I don't feel I'm being "behind" I'm staying and building my talent an name in a smaller market, so it can travel faster than in a big market like NYC.

Philly and Chicago are still a possible places, but since everyone wants me and are throwing things to me left and right then it looks like its meant for me to stay. At least for now. People I graduated with felt that it was essential to move to LA to make it. I really don't feel that way. I read a quote that said "The cream ALWAYS rises to the top, no matter where the cup is" and I hold that true to my heart. Because if you're gonna make things happen, then you're gonna make them happen where ever you go. Its gonna be plenty of people who go out to LA and get burned out and discouraged and, ya know LA isn't for everybody and they don't have a ton of jobs I hear. It takes a certain type of monster in my opinion. But the few "cream" have gotten jobs and quite quickly too.

So, I've been trying to keep my positivity up as much as possible. And I thanks God for a guy like Mike who is absolutely amazing. The greatest guy I've ever dated. He keeps me encouraged and motivates me, and is always looking out. I'm try to hold on to this guy forever. his birthday just passed on the 20th for his 20th, so I told him I would celebrate the whole rest of the month for him. He deserves it.

Send love to the universe


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Monday, August 24, 2009

Interships aren't gonna stop dem boys from knocking

I asked my financial aid lady if I got an internship would that defer my loans for the duration of the internship. She basically said "Hell Naw". Its still counting down from graduation day. Wow ! Education for poor people is a trap ! stay away! lol , I'm kidding, but it is a trap, but don't stay away. Keep at it and try to defer as along as possible. I was talking to this one lady who graduated like a year and a half ago and is JUST NOW paying hers back. so Yea I still have a little dodging to do.



Tuesday, August 18, 2009

You never know how you have an affect on people

Today, one of my closest friends sent me a message on facebook and it really touched my heart. You know that takes alot because I'm a stone cold thug, wondering if heaven has a ghetto LOL . BUT She was saying how her family is so proud of me of what I've done and what I'm currently doing and it made me sit back and bask in the moment for a second. I really don't acknowledge what I'm doing most of the time mainly because it's happening so fast. She also said that I'm her inspiration to do what she's passionate about. She's seen my courage and is inspired by it. This is the type of affect I want to leave on people. I didn't think the impact would be so great so soon though. It honestly made me tear up. I really hope she goes through with her dreams and passion because I guarantee if she doesn't she old be happy in the long run.

I know that my family are proud and my little cousins looks up to me , but I never knew my peers were watching so attentively, and that with in itself is pushing me to go harder. Doing what I think is right and feels half right is how I've gotten this far. There are no written guides to this shit, you live you learn, and try to watch out for the warning signs the wise hint to you.

But I've been really feeling super good lately, like my positivity aura is getting greater and greater everyday. And at this point I'm not even worried about what I don't have, I'm just working to get to where I need to be.

I've been searching the Orlando area for work in fashion magazines and publications of that nature for photography. One of the magazines I sought after staff members contacted me today, so I'm praying something comes through with that. That was super exciting, and in the mean time I will continue to do me, build my skill hone my craft. What else can I do when I'm not getting paid, GET BETTER.

I made up a new saying today "Love the skin you're in, love the kin you're in"
I think its very important to love God, yourself and family no matter how dysfunctional they are. No one said you couldn't love from a distance, never the less love them.

ps. check my updated photography portfolio. on flickr.

my personal website is under development right now, I have to get one of those to become legit.

love you all and send peace to the universe,


pps Before writing this entry I wanted to make sure I was using the correct use of affect or effect. So I looked up the word Affect and it said - to have and effect on . LMAO wow thanks alot with all the webster